Monday, November 7, 2011


I am so grateful today is almost done.  It was not a wonderful day at work.  Oh well, what can one do.  I did get to read my book a little last night and that was a good thing.  I am enjoying the book, which is good.  It was stressing me out a little because there for a minute I was totally lost and not even sure what was happening in the book. :S 

So here's a question for anyone who cares... Do you ever feel like people really do NOT care how you feel? You know, just as long as you are there doing and saying what they want then they are happy with you.  If you attempt to say or express anything different than what is on their agenda, then it's like they get all glazed over and you lose them or they get irritated with you?  Does anyone out there feel this way?  Or is it just me? I feel this way all of the time. I feel like I am not supposed to feel anything but happy or have that smile painted on my face all of the time for everyone and when I can't always be that way, people get really upset with me or tell me that I am overreacting or being mean.  How do I deal with this without getting upset or being hurt? I just don't know anymore.  You would think that a woman of 41 would have the stupid answer to this.  Geez...

Oh well.  I think I am calling it a night. 


  1. I know exactly what you mean. If you ever do figure out how to deal with this please let me know. I'm still trying to figure this out as well.

  2. I know what you mean it makes you want to scream really loud in frustration or rant. It's because they don't want to deal with it, These people be it friends or coworkers are not really interested so in effect they tune you out and say be positive or sorry to hear that and there done. The best way to deal with it? Honestly be yourself why paint on a face put forth such an effort for what? when they don't care anyways. If they don't want to be around you afterwards well did you really want to be around them when they make you feel that way? They don't have the time for it that they say there are other people having a worse time, or that whatever is going on god only gave/gives you what you can handle. It's just something to say having no true meaning. Real friends and people that honestly care are hard to come by and you can go months without talking to. Hopefully that makes sense sorry to rant.

  3. Meagan and Ash I love you both!! No worries on the rant Ash, you are allowed to rant away here. :D I am just so over all of the high school drama in the world out there. It's really getting old. I just want to be me, whatever that is and move on with my life. Thank you both for understanding me. It helps to know I have family out there that gets me. Love you both!